I missed You, Lord,
my Creator and Sustainer.
As I was traveling,
my rhythm was
off,
my quiet time was spent
asleep,
my awareness of
You
was
dimmed.
Eventually,
I became aware…
of this missing…
this missing of
You.
You
had faded from my
life, thoughts, and moments.
I knew
You
were there,
but my awareness of
You,
my thoughts of
You,
my need of
You
had dimmed.
This experience of
being “away” from
You
reminded me of
the critical importance
of having a
Christ-centered community.
A community of others
who also love
You,
want to serve
You,
and desire to live out
Your will.
Being with others who love
You
helps me remain
connected and aware of
You.
You,
the Trinity,
are community and
have given this gift of community
to us.
Without
You
in my life, thoughts, and moments,
my living feels
empty,
lacking purpose,
leaving me wanting and
wondering
what
else
there
is.
There is…
You.
I want to live with and for
You.
There is no other way.
To those who don’t know
You,
this can sound crazy.
There are those
who think this choice
is really out there
as they watch people
who claim Your love,
seek power for themselves,
spew hate towards those
seen as “other”,
and sow fear in
Your name.
I’ve never felt that I
had to qualify my faith before,
but at this moment in my life and
in our country’s existence,
I want others,
I need others,
to know that I worship
You God,
follow Jesus, and
cooperate with the Holy Spirit,
not a
human leader or
earthly power.
I strive to love all people,
not only those like me.
I believe we are called
to love others,
not judge,
mistreat, or
minimize people.
I do my best to
seek Your will,
not my own,
and choose Your way,
rather than create a false reality
to support my
desires or needs.
Loving
You
is counter-cultural.
Loving all others in Your name is
counter-cultural.
I am not here for myself,
but for
You.
Help me hold on tightly
to Your hand
as I walk my path.
I will never live perfectly for
You,
but I will give
You
my best.
You don’t seek perfection.
Help me shine
for
You
in such a way that
others will consider
You.
Help me share
You
gently with others
in the hope they will
choose to get to know
You
more today than yesterday.
Each day I pray
I will love,
not try to be right.
I pray
I will love each day,
not assess and
categorize.
I see the ongoing
assessment,
judgment,
persecution, and
categorization
of those seen as “other”
to be a
distraction
from what God truly
wants us to accomplish.
I choose to love because
You
first loved me
and always will.
I am Your broken,
beautiful,
lost, and
precious child,
and yet
You
love me
without qualification or limit.
Your love is a
gift of grace.
Your love cannot be earned,
only received.
May someone experience
You
in a new, powerful, and lasting
way today.
In Your hope and power,
not my own.
© 2022 Brooke F. Sulahian