Feeling EXPOSED and VULNERABLE?!?!
This is not what I expected
Had I even signed up for this?
This was not part of the journey I wanted to continue
Where did this come from?
I thought crossing the line was the tough part
I felt my heart resist taking more steps
Could I simply stop?
I really wanted to stop
Could I just sit down and stay right where I was?
I told myself I could…so I did
I felt that I lacked the energy for anything else…this was too hard
Thankfully, He did not let me stay there long
As much as I fought my feelings and fears, He patiently softened my heart
He cut through my feelings and fears to my heart…to my soul…
He showed me what was really inside of me waiting to be released
I remember the morning I finally saw His full knowledge of me as a gift
I could honestly say to myself, if He knows me so well and loves me anyway, then He truly loves all of me
It took courage to act on this but I decided
– I CAN TRUST Him
– I CAN WALK with Him
– I CAN GO where He leads me
I stood up…I was ready to move on
However, I could not take a step
We still had heart work to do…
Moving ahead placed me at a fork in the road…a decision was before me
I had to choose: Be real with God and deal with my “stuff” or not
Being real with God would require me to come clean with myself
Being real might be painful at times
Being real would be the harder of the two roads…the road less traveled
What did I choose?
What would you choose?
(Thank you for walking with me. More to come…)
© 2017 Brooke F. Sulahian