Trust April 10, 2024

If I do not

trust

You

enough to get

my daily rest,

I will continue

to burn myself

up and out,

constantly turning back

to recovery mode,

during which my recovery

seems to happen

more

and

more

s

l

o

w

l

y.

The idea of

slowing

and

stopping

this morning

makes me incredibly anxious,

but I know

in my head

that rest and balance

are what

You

want for me.

You also know

what I truly

need to accomplish

today

and

every

day.

Knowing about rest

and

how to rest

is not the trick.

It’s actually trusting

You

enough

to rest

e

v

e

r

y

day.

I feel

I’m stepping over

a threshold

with

You

today

at 9:18 a.m.

I want to live

a healthy life

with

a healthy balance.

I not only

want this for myself,

but I want

to model this

for my

family

and

friends,

because we all need

balance

and

true

rest.

Rest.

I accept

this invitation

from

You

in

trust.

May

I

find

true daily rest in

You

this

day…

© 2024 Brooke F. Sulahian

I Found Myself Grateful October 25, 2022

When I got sick in November of 2019

My active life came to an abrupt HALT

No more reading books

No more jogging

No more walking for any length of time

No more barre

No more circuit training

No more dependable body

No more predictable life with plans I could keep

HALT!

That was 3 years ago

That was a very long season

That was a time I will always remember

That is a time I have learned to appreciate

My time of SLOW

SLOW…

Last week, I found myself sitting

I was sitting on my yoga mat at Barre and Soul

I had not been to the studio for 3 years

I had not done barre for 3 years

I used to do barre weekly

It was a FAVORITE of mine

FAVORITE

Last week, while sitting on my mat

Pure JOY welled up within me

Joy from being so GRATEFUL

Grateful for the desire, opportunity, and ABILITY to give barre a try again

Being full of joy and gratefulness was sweet

It was also powerful

It fueled me during that session

JOY – GRATEFUL – ABILITY

As we began the class, QUESTIONS surfaced in my head and heart

“Am I really back?”

“Do I have the health and strength to get through the class?”

“Will I remember how to do it?”

QUESTIONS

As we closed, I was able to answer myself…

YES!

YES!

YES!

Sometimes we cannot fully appreciate something

Until we lose it, even for a time

I lost barre along with my active lifestyle

It was given back to me, piece by piece

I have no crystal ball and cannot predict the future

But today I have a body that is much more dependable

And for that, I find myself GRATEFUL!

GRATEFUL!

© 2022 Brooke F. Sulahian