Unfinished Stories December 8, 2017
I Crossed the Line…Segment 5 February 1, 2017
Thankfully I chose to be real…I chose to deal…I chose to live in Him and His truth
This is a daily choice as I let Him work in and through me
I have times of peace and pain, clarity and confusion, and everything in between
This is the true path for me but I am not the leader…I am following His lead in full release
Hard discoveries are part of this path
I discovered the lies I thought were a part of my past are still there
These lies that I know so well are still vying for real estate within my heart and a hold on my mind
My life-long lies of desiring control, fear of failure, and need for earthly acclaim are alive and well
How could this be?
It hit me…
Once again I allowed myself to believe the lie that my value is based on my performance
The lie that my value is based on how Hope for Our Sisters does from year to year
The lie that my value is based on what others think of me
The lie that everything is on my shoulders
The lie that I have to be in control
On this new path I tell myself…
– I am not my performance
– I am not Hope for Our Sisters’ performance
– I am not what others think of me
– I am – and you are – so much more than that!
What about my value solely because I am His daughter?
I had to acknowledge that these lies are still after me and at times, gaining access and taking hold
Again… EXPOSED and VULNERABLE…
but also PEACEFUL and CALM
A beautiful mix of REAL
I crossed the line
I have chosen the path less traveled which can be painful yet also incredibly rich….rich with Him!
Along this new path I seek to “marinate” daily in His Word…His truth…the only place where true freedom resides
I could not have anticipated this AMAZING JOURNEY and I cannot wait to see how He uses it
in His time and way
I CROSSED THE LINE
I took a chance on Him because He daily takes a chance on me
It has been so worth it!
Are you ready to step over your line, open your door, accept your invitation, make your phone call?
He is there…waiting…inviting you to the other side
© 2017 Brooke F. Sulahian
I Crossed the Line…Segment 4 January 27, 2017
Feeling EXPOSED and VULNERABLE?!?!
This is not what I expected
Had I even signed up for this?
This was not part of the journey I wanted to continue
Where did this come from?
I thought crossing the line was the tough part
I felt my heart resist taking more steps
Could I simply stop?
I really wanted to stop
Could I just sit down and stay right where I was?
I told myself I could…so I did
I felt that I lacked the energy for anything else…this was too hard
Thankfully, He did not let me stay there long
As much as I fought my feelings and fears, He patiently softened my heart
He cut through my feelings and fears to my heart…to my soul…
He showed me what was really inside of me waiting to be released
I remember the morning I finally saw His full knowledge of me as a gift
I could honestly say to myself, if He knows me so well and loves me anyway, then He truly loves all of me
It took courage to act on this but I decided
– I CAN TRUST Him
– I CAN WALK with Him
– I CAN GO where He leads me
I stood up…I was ready to move on
However, I could not take a step
We still had heart work to do…
Moving ahead placed me at a fork in the road…a decision was before me
I had to choose: Be real with God and deal with my “stuff” or not
Being real with God would require me to come clean with myself
Being real might be painful at times
Being real would be the harder of the two roads…the road less traveled
What did I choose?
What would you choose?
(Thank you for walking with me. More to come…)
© 2017 Brooke F. Sulahian